Running Away.....

At one moment I want to stay..
The other, I'm off to somewhere far..
Where i cant even have
a glimpse of my past!!!

Sometimes I talk a lot..
It's just to stop those thoughts!!
Sometimes I'm dead quiet...
'Cuz at those times I have lost my war!!

Don't know what's best for me
Don't know what I should pray for..
The mind and heart
Just stay far apart!!!

Hope I could just tell someone
Its hard to swallow it alone!!
I know it feels stupid to say..
But I feel like running away!!!