Friday, January 22, 2010

Hazarron Khawaishein Kuch Aisiii….

Dreams. Dreams .Dreams. We keep on dreaming about big and small things... day in day out... wishing they get granted as soon as possible...and time to time they are fulfilled as well.. But the thing that doesn’t go away is the Want… the insatiable desire to get more...more than what we have... or at least more than what others have... :P

But how many times do we sit back and think do we really deserve what we have already got…and appreciate what God has bestowed upon us keeping immense faith in us…You really do when one day suddenly you are splurged with all your wishes…I have experienced it.. Not once but twice and mind it... it feels amazing... it’s like everything is moving around on your whims and fancies…

Always the one to fantasize things, drafts wish lists and pre plan every single event , I used get a little sad when things didn’t go exactly the same way( or should I say MY WAY).. No matter how much I tried to hide it or ignore it...But on those days God didn’t give me a chance for that... I got not just what I thought of... but also those tiny ones which I had long forgotten about, being used to the fact that they are not worth worrying about…

One of those days was 3rd September 2009 when I got my first job…and the other was my birthday ( when I got my first teddy, first high heels, first blog, first…the list is long :P).Now I know what you are thinking.. How stupid a person can be to keep these two widely incomparable achievements together? But who cares... :P


And that’s because today I realize how stupid we are when we keep on running after things that we don’t get, ignoring the hundreds and thousands of wonderful though small surprises that keep springing up every moment of our life. We choose not to pay attention or even smile back at them for the simple reason that we think it’s too sub- standard to be happy about tiny things. We are too busy pursuing BIGGER things in life. No doubt, there is so much to achieve in this ever-competing world... (Where u can win or lose a 10m$ race by microseconds or is it nano-seconds..: P) and I never said to stop running after the big things...But I still feel its not a good enough reason to miss those thousands of smiling moments...that may not just brighten up your life... but also the world around you…Just try it once…!!!! :)

Sunday, January 17, 2010

The Beginning....

Whenever I get down to write something, I always end up blank or writing something sounding foolish.Its not that I have nothing to say or tell.. in fact it’s the opposite way.. there are like hundreds and thousands of thoughts and ideas floating in my mind, waiting to get the right medium to come out in open, fighting for survival, pushing each other to get the chance first………just like a school kid fighting for half a mark to pass in a 100 marks paper……:P
But this time I realised it better to just write out whatever comes in my mind… umm.. just like a flowing river…or leave it on d thoughts to fight their own battle in my mind.. n just reward the one which wins!!!:)
Well.. now of course..there is only one thought that has successfully managed to keep roaming in my mind..about the big day of my lyf… that comes every year:P!! ya ya I know.. how kiddish n over the top it is to be soooo excited about your birthday.. after all it repeats every year .. what is so new about it.. all said and down…(in fact I can hear the giggles even now) but I guess.. I cant help but be happy and excited( actually super-excited in my own words..)this is the way I like to celebrate.. and just be thankful for this wonderful Gift of Life!!!And I believe this the best way I can give back to God who has been so kind on me to provide me with all the beautiful things:- family, friends,success , happiness.. but most important Satisfaction… !!To just be happy with my life and the way its going!
Ahhh I know .. its sounding very cliche.. idealistically boring… but this realisation has come after a long struggle.. the struggle called life…Running after numbers, rat race, gossiping, feeling emotionally sick,fighting on minutest of things, getting sudden bursts of anger( mind it I still get them…but now making a conscious effort to keep them away!), facing rejections after rejections… but when I sit back and think calmly I can see the goodness around me…. That I missed in the hyperactive state of mind..And that’s when I realise that its easiest to be irritated, annoyed, angry, dejected.. but its most difficult to hold your nerves and stay calm and smile in the toughest moments of life. And just be happy for all the good things in your life!!
Well now that this piece is going nowhere…I ll just like to end it here…but before I do that ..I just want to thank all my friends and my dear ones.. who have , in one way or the other, helped me to be a better person( I know most of them wont agree ..:P) and have added new shades in my life, making it just not colourful but delightful as well!!!!Thanks guys..luv u lots…Hope the bond of togetherness grows stronger in this coming year of my lyf…
And in the end this one is for myself…
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!Hope to have a rocking 21st year !!! Let it begin..:):)